New Moons are new beginnings but don’t exactly imply endings. The endings are the hardest of work. Often during the new moon cycle old patterns will resurface. Like cleaning out a filter, the sediment flows out. Unlike with flushing a filter, ideas, thoughts, memories, and desires can expand quickly into revisiting previous realities.

The doorway between the old and the new is a choice and requires us to buttress with planning, discipline, and intention. Otherwise, there is no difference between one room and another. Emotions have a way of blending spaces, distorting time, influencing otherwise clear thinking with luxurious fantasies and overzealous wishes.

As a new moon strikes, the overall energy pattern is that of calm. That is the forecast. The storm that develops is from within us, we alchemize within and project outward.

In the quietude of the outer peace, the inner has a chance to show it’s deeper and softer side simultaneously. This can feel all encompassing, as that which usually isn’t seen is free to dance and display itself. It kind of goes without saying, but the things that we repress or suppress are often not the most comfortable parts of ourselves.

Full moons, in comparison, are a festival of performative overtures. The ether buzzes. Even rest and sleep has a certain electricity to it. In this environment, it can be far easier to hide the deepest parts of ourselves in our personal holding spaces.

So as we embrace this new moon, what is coming up for you? Clarity is key.

Can we find a way to make sense of our desires?
Is it possible to understand not just what we want, but why we want it?
In doing so, we aren’t saying YES or NO to the desire, but we are asserting control over a piece of ourselves. Pieces that all too often have us chasing a rabbit that is perpetually beyond our grasp.

With becoming aware of WHY we want something, we can begin to uncover deeper longings. Self work isn’t easy and it doesn’t happen overnight. It is, nonetheless, very rewarding.

If something has escaped your grasp over and over and over… now is a great time to get real with yourself. What are you chasing? And why? If you never get it, will you be okay? If you get it tomorrow, what might that bring to you? Can you hold both ideas simultaneously?

Jupiter into Gemini…By the end of this month, Jupiter will have ingressed into Tropical Gemini and will be trine to Pluto. That which is at our depths will come to the surface. It is highly recommended to begin any personal awareness practice (journaling, meditation, creative work, therapy, counseling) as soon as you can. When this transit strikes to close out May, the hidden comes to life.

There is no reason to fear this, but there is plenty of reason to revere it. Put yourself in a position to benefit by becoming as honest as you can about your own motivations and what lies beneath and behind them.

Necessary Changes

It doesn’t take a genius to notice that the world has some shadow work to do. The systems under which we all both suffer and benefit were built long ago and have been chugging along for millenia. As we step into an age of awareness (both personal and social) expect more to come up.

Those who are running the systems will not willingly change them to create a more balanced structure. If they were to do this, all structure would cease to exist and be subject to the whimsy of the people within sed structure. Structures, no matter how archaic and imbalanced, must resist change.

Perhaps we are at the tipping point of revolution and evolution. Can we focus on solutions? Can we foster civil unrest that creates awareness and healing as opposed to battles and chaos? Certainly an awakening this long in the making requires a bit of everything. However, the more we become aware of our place in this grand universe, the more likely we are to have compassion and foresight.

The pains of the past are in the past. This doesn’t make them right, but remembering this can help to see that the problems started a long time ago. That which pops up now is a symbol of these long standing imbalances and abuses. Don’t get confused and think the world is falling apart. We are just doing some long overdue and much needed renovations.

As people continue to express their frustrations, the word is getting around. Change takes time, and when it doesn’t, that’s known as disaster… very few want this.

Maintain your Center

The key to this time of rapid awakening continues to be very simple… Focus on yourself!

This does not mean to be completely self centered and narcissistically selfish. What it means is to make YOU the starting point in all situations. Reside in your center, and work from there. Intrinsic motivations are your intuitions way of speaking through you. If we are constantly triggered by what happens outside of us, we will never really get in touch with our inner dialogue.

Everytime you witness something outside of yourself, you are being drawn out of your center. This is natural, it’s part of life. Seeing something beautiful pulls a magical feeling out of me that flows into my heart. Being in love with someone is quite the same. Energy emerges from my depths and has me thinking and dreaming about this person. It’s easy to lose track of ourselves in the world, and honestly, it’s not all that bad. In order to find bliss, we often have to transcend the mundane world and self.

In love and adventure, losing oneself just kind of happens. Time alone and apart from these things is essential to restore, integrate, and take care.

There is, however, a more insidious form of losing self that occurs in the world. That is where we are motivated into action by things that are out of our control. Often these instances are sensationalized. We are given only the most intense or triggering aspects of the issue. Dynamics such as these often rouse communities into a spell of reactivity. This adds to the loss of self, as humans are generally inclined to join spirited movements, especially that of family, friends and of like minded individuals.

In the coming days, weeks, months, and years we will be tested on our ability to maintain an identity. Group think gets stronger and stronger as technological advancements allow us to be instantaneously connected to millions of people. As we experience events collectively, the development of reactions and opinions also gets streamlined. Instead of millions of people thinking and responding independently, we now have a few options offered to us. Nuance can be lost quite easily. Good or bad, black or white, right or wrong, left or right. It’s all nonsense, obviously. The world isn’t simply a place of polarities, it is a place of infinite shades with the spectrum of possibility.

The general population doesn’t really get it, but by separating themselves into easily offered narratives they make themselves easy to divide and conquer. Any chance of overhauling manipulative and abusive systems become increasingly slim with each polarizing issue that they choose to fight over. Little do they realize that it is the operators of the oppressive machine that deliver the narratives and salacious content.

To bring it back down to Earth, we need to focus back on what is in front of us. The opportunity to share our opinions on all of the worlds issues will be there. Take advantage if it makes you feel good. But don’t let it tear you down and start believing that the people around you are ‘stupid’ or ‘enemies’.

We all need love, healing, food, water, shelter… at the end of the day, we are bonded by this human experience. Stay humble and sit with yourself. Find what makes you YOU and share THAT with the world. You will be doing us all a very large favor.

Have a blessed new moon…