A VERY BUSY WEEK ON A PERSONAL LEVEL
Personal planets dancing with one another. Going through metamorphosis.
*** For clarity — Cazimi = conjunction with the Sun ***
After blending with one another and changing places, Mars and Venus then enter a phase of activating a tense and painful Jupiter square Chiron transit that has been active through the second half of 2025.
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Chiron Direct — Venus Jupiter Chiron
Chiron is also working into its final conjunction with Eris… read more here ::
Healing with Chiron Eris
The personal planets effect our sense of self, motivation, desires and will power. Mars and Venus together can move us towards self sabotage, impulsivity, projection, ignorance, impatience and blame.
It is just a little too easy to take a vacation from being responsible for our own feelings. The pain in our hearts and minds is very present. The collective challenge has been on display and all of its ugly parts have found their ways of coming to the surface. All of it has felt kind of surreal.
Seeing Ourselves is Hard
The powerful lessons from universal wisdom are clear and succinct, often the hardest ones to accept. As humans, we tend towards psychodramas to ‘figure out our stuff’. Repeating patterns collide with predictable outcomes. Instead of stopping and recognizing, we refuse to feel the full weight of what we are observing. An emotional journey begins. The feelings blind us from the pressing truth we were to face. Instead it becomes a story about the reactions. From there, any number of eruptions can cause chaos.
We end up obsessed with the latest news story or obsessed with the past or future.
Anything to take us away from seeing and feeling our vulnerable selves.
Running on Suppressed Emotion
When we are driven by unprocessed emotion, we will run, jump, attack and wander quite aimlessly. In order to be intentional and empowered, we must be deeply in touch with our core. Inability to sit with and embrace self is the root of disempowered thoughts and actions.
I spent decades of my life running from the feelings of my childhood. I stayed very busy and distracted. I didn’t really know why I was doing things, but it felt good. In my early 30’s I found a more mindful approach through meditation and self reflection. I took time daily to sit with my feelings. I slowed down. In doing so, I began to unravel. Much of my life didn’t really work for me anymore, and this was a good thing. For the first time in my life, I began to consider what I actually wanted. Since then, I have been completely knocking it out of the park with zero errors ((sarcastic tone emphasized)).
If anything, the platform I built as a child is a symbol of the lessons and tendencies I brought into this life. The repeating patterns I experience are a manifestation of those tendencies and desire to learn. It’s not that I have trouble with relationships, its that I wanted to learn through this lens. I called in the scenarios that would challenge me in the perfect way. Through facing these complex challenges, I am able to develop parts of myself I could never do alone.
Doing it Alone Doesn’t Really Cut It
I met a beautiful and brilliant woman years ago. She had been through a lot in her life. At 40 years old, she had spent the last 4 years working and being alone with her dog. She had been listening to podcasts, doing meditations, reading spiritual literature and working on her inner world. When we were first hanging out, she told me she had been working on herself and that she saw herself as highly evolved. I mean, hey, good for you I don’t judge. She certainly carried a lot of light and wisdom.
As we got to know each other a little better, I began to see that she had no idea how to apply this wisdom in relation to others. She could offer insight, share ideas and tell people what to do. At the first sign of challenge from another person, however, she showed herself to be more akin to a toddler. If you know me well, then you will know that this connection didn’t end well. I tend to challenge people, whether I intend to or not (something I am working on to make more conscious), and she did not like this.
The point here is that her personal evolution was very real. She had spent time, like a monk, in her retreat center working on herself. The problem was, that evolution was of little use if it could not be applied to relating. In the end, her greatest sorrow was that she was alone and felt misunderstood, scorned and discarded.
Working Together Expedites Evolution
Sometimes we just need to let it all get messy and trust that we can work it out. Doing everything alone might feel comfortable, but unless we plan to do our whole lives alone, we have to bring in the influence of others. While family dynamics can be complicated, often it is the only place where we truly get to work out our inner growth in a practical manner. We can control, manipulate, or even abuse our inner selves without anyone stopping us. It is a whole other experience to compromise, negotiate, share and experience with another person.
Other people will stop you in your tracks. They will point out things that you, yourself, are blind to.
This isn’t 1+1=2… no, adding others is an exponential shift. Every feeling, word, thought and action towards them triggers a multitude of reactions and responses. Navigating this, my friends, is how we grow into something much larger than ourselves.
Some people just teach us to say NO… growth comes in learning who isn’t safe for us. In certain instances, the best way to grow from a relationship is to terminate the connection, sometimes for good. In most cases, however, patience, communication and self love will bring about greener pastures.
Capricornicus
As we navigate Wednesday through Friday (and beyond), the growth feels very personal. If you are in a relationship, know that it can feel a little bumpy. When each person is transforming internally, eruptions can arise within the dynamic. It’s not that serious, at least for the couple. For the individuals, that journey is essential and vital information. Wherever there are blurred boundaries, this week can challenge us, as the transformation of one can blend into the transformation of other. Reduce expectations and try to loosen attachments. Know that the tether of unconditional love is all that is needed to foster secure attachment. What you love and what loves you will return in due time. Through allowing them to go on their wander, they will return more full of love than you have ever seen them.
This is a great time to think of yourself first, with dignity and love.
Capricorn tells us to be solid within ourselves. This solidity is to create something lasting. Something that others can enjoy as well. See this as a chance to work on yourself, so that others can feel safer and more inspired by who you are. If you aren’t motivated by others benefitting, than just do it for yourself. Either way you will get where you need to go.