The sun will make its way into Sagittarius today and move into sextile with Pluto. This officially ends the Sun’s role in the Grand Water Trine. It has been both enlivening and refreshing over the last week. As things move forward, we pick off issues one by one, and the deeper layering comes to our attention. These few months (October-December) are a time of unlimited growth. However, time and energy in this 3D world are limited. Do what you can. Prioritize what is important. Look for opportunities to ‘put things to bed’.
Avoidance as a Tool
We don’t need to be terrorized by our reality. Reality is a gift. Maybe not the gift we’ve asked for, but it is perfect. A layoff, a breakup, an injury all put us into spaces we probably wouldn’t have chosen otherwise.
The job, partner or freedom of movement got you to here and now, there is much to feel, process, and consider.
In my life, the scariest moments aren’t actually that scary. I have been in distinct life or death scenarios and have never felt terrorized. I have felt fear when canyoneering in a flash flood, but I wasn’t terrorized. When I ran into two mountain lion at night in the mountains, I felt fear, but I felt grounded and focused. The things that terrorize me and cause me to lose sleep, the things that disregulate my nervous system are the things I avoid.
The further I get down the line, the longer I put off something, the worse it gets. Until an unpaid bill or secret is stalking me in my dreams.
There are many escapes from the world at large. I could go live in a canyon. I could pick up my life and move to a foreign country. I cannot, however, get away from myself. I cannot get away from my emotions. I cannot escape my soul, my higher self, my connection to spirit and God. No matter how far I walk, hike, drive, or fly I bring it all with me.
When ME finds ME it is always a sobering effect. Sometimes I like it, I know I needed it. I sit with it. But other times I run. It is a feeling like I have to escape but there is no specific reason for it. I just wanna run and be anywhere that isn’t my home or common setting. In a way this is what spurs my desire for adventuring into new places. It is what drives me to create new recipes and challenge my creative potential.
I am filled with unprocessed feelings. I admit it. I spend time everyday journaling, exercising, connecting with others and my body… but still, there is always more.
I don’t want to sit in it, so I do stuff. Knowing what I can and cannot change is both humbling and empowering. Right now, as you read this, there is likely something you can do to curb the anxiety or suffering that exists in your life. Isn’t it great when we can just take action and things move!?
If you have anything like this, take a moment to feel into it. If you are ready, commit to a time and a place to do it. Love yourself for this.
Finding Balance
Some issues are part of deeper and larger emotional process. They can’t be just gotten rid of. Over time, they are felt and integrated. This type of stuff can have us jumping through hoops to avoid ourselves. They are motivating factors towards ‘greatness’. I would say that the workaholic is an example of this. We become obsessed with being ‘busy’ and ‘productive’. Being occupied simply pushes the awareness of the issues and emotional complex out of consciousness. At the end of the day, a few drinks and some distractions, suddenly we don’t have to feel anything. The next day begins, and it’s back to the grind.
Some of the greatest works of art and technology have been spurred by those who are obsessed and never stop. There is tremendous beauty, grace and blessings to this way of being. The trouble is that, if the soul is aiming for growth and evolution, the obsession and escape may stymie the individual or collective. At that point, the work, the project, the art, the hobby or the escape will begin to faulter or fail the individual.
Relationships can easily be distractions. I have seen more than a few lose their spark and momentum only to recognize later that each individual needed to grow. The relationship was such a safe and loving distraction that is was enabling a spiritual stagnation. So, in reality, anything we are involved in can do this. In my experience, the volition of the soul will win the battle for attention, one way or another.
This is a game of balance. The world is what it is for now. People gotta make a living. Staying in one place all the time is not reasonable. I am not recommending people do nothing. I would prefer that we live in perpetual motion. A dance between the physical and the emotional. Each taking turns as lead. Perfect stillness being found in the transitions for moments. As we slow down physically, the processing flows more strongly. At times we may be in perfect harmony, where the actions and movement are the purpose and the processing. I am just describing flow, and in a way 5 Rhythms dance.
So Check In
We can all find balance, so let’s check in. There has simply been MORE ENERGY recently. In addition to the uptick in overall energy, the outer planets are facilitating new perspectives and realizations. So not only is there more energy to work with, but the energy is new or at least appears that way. Hard to know what to do with it all. The distribution of such energy may not be ideal. We need to find the balance between our spiritual and physical pursuits. It is a realignment.
Find your balance. Remember that JOY is an essential nutrient in relationships, work and life. Infuse it wherever you can. Where you find resistance to joy, add even more.