It may feel that we are at odds with ourselves. Changing spaces and places, orientations and patterns. Identity is very real, even if it isn’t helpful. Crushing blows are being delivered as often as there are uplifting opportunities.
The way things are just isn’t doing it for you anymore. If we have been actively working on changing things, the path forward is a little bit clearer. There is energy for advancement and positive shifts. Any lack of focus is a chance to delve into creative chaos. Centering practices are immediately helpful and may need to done at regular intervals.
What are we at odds with? More importantly, why have we been settled into a space that is dissatisfying? Follow me here…
Where do you find yourself in your life?
What is the most irksome part of it?
What decisions led to you being in this position?
What were the events or situations that motivated you to make these decisions?
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The life that surrounds us was built upon years of choices. Those choices were motivated by existing circumstance. Those circumstance were steps along a path of unfolding. At the root of all of it is YOU, is ME, is US.
We start every portion of our journey with a set of self governing rules. These rules, values and ideologies are based on the way we view the world. The way in which we view the world is skewed by and relative to previous experiences.
We start from where we are. We could have never known that the decisions we made 10 or 20 years ago would bring us here. We made those decisions out of a desire to learn about ourselves. From a desire to heal, to bring things back to completion.
Our minds and hearts seek to recreate loving events by searching out similar scenarios. The holidays are filled with nostalgia. A time where we collectively ‘take some time off’ and spend time around familiar people. It engenders a spirit of liveliness and freedom. The desire to recreate the ‘good times’ is part of how we function.
Even more than a desire to relive the good is a desire to revisit the ‘bad’, the painful and the unfinished. When we go through a loss, a breakup or tragedy we seek answers. Explanations, reasons, culprits or scapegoats. Our consciousness seeks to know why. We want answers. Otherwise, the psyche may just believe that we ‘deserve’ what we get. Children who are abused will have self worth issues throughout their lives unless they can work through the belief associated with the abuse. Being disrespected, coddled, physically or sexually abused leads us to believe that we are worthy of such treatment.
If we believe this, are we ever truly abundant? Or are we struggling against the world?
The mind won’t simply let things be. Quite the contrary. The mind will take an event and build its reality based off of it. The mind is collecting data. The stronger the influence, the more it will shade the concept of reality, a reality viewed from the central point of self. The concept of self is defined by our experiences. The earlier the experience, the more pervasive of influence imprinted onto our self concept and thus reality.
There are ways that we view the world that have absolutely nothing to do with the world as it exists. We drag our baggage through the interdimensional planes of existence. It is mind boggling to consider, but undeniable. We are imprisoned by the unhealed woundings of our past.
Souls Seek Freedom
Our souls seek to be free. Soul energy will express itself in whatever ways it can to draw our attention to the ways in which we are stuck. The calamities, sicknesses, heartaches or shocking chance events are brought to us by the soul’s desire to awaken us to something.
In our day to day lives, it may feel that we can ‘get away’ with avoiding something. This is true only for a time. That which requires attention will become more and more troublesome. We may stub our toe, hit our head or forget to pay an important bill. Then consequences come that have us feeling frustrating energy. In that stillness of chaotic acceptance our own missteps, the avoided energy gets a little bit closer to us.
These micro examples are just the tip of the iceberg. We may find ourselves in relationships, careers, cities, families and other pervading circumstances that we really DO NOT enjoy. Everything that is unfinished will inevitably find us. The longer we have been running, the more intense the circumstance.
When we live on the run from ourselves, life can feel like a cruel punishment. Like we have to just grind through our days and take care of responsibilities until we get a chance to rest. On some level, we all feel this, but some more than others. Perhaps you feel this way about your life right now. You are not happy in your life. Something feels out of sorts, its hard to make sense of WHY it is like this?!
Trust me when I tell you, there is a reason. The universe loves you, even if it doesn’t feel like you are in love with your life. Many of us on Earth are here to work through the same core memories, challenges and obstacles together. The deepest problems aren’t discussed enough. When they are, many people will shy away as they have been trained to avoid discussion of sensitive and vulnerable topics.
It ain’t all that bad. The biggest issues will always be the unspoken. This includes the unconscious ones.
Releasing the Patterns
If we want to stop the ills of the world around us, we have to change ourselves. We see many taking to their phones, keyboards and to the streets demanding better for the world. They point their forked tongues and fingers at leaders, influencers, exes, abusive parents and political opponents. Hey, there is always room for accountability, right? However, it is getting out of hand and I think that is easy to see.
We fight with and blame one another when we, internally, aren’t feeling very well. When you start your day with a walk in the sun, journaling, yoga and meditation, your next step probably isn’t to judge your neighbor for the flag he hangs in his yard. How do you start your day?
Control of our own lives starts with our daily habits. What we do, what we expose ourselves to, what we think about… we will become. To clarify, you won’t become the newsfeed. But you will be shaped by the emotions and energies that it holds. We create ourselves new everyday, but we work with the imprint left from the day before. This cycle goes all the way back to our birth. If we have been exposing ourselves to a thought or energy every single day, it is our truth, it is our philosophy, it is our dogma and religion.
Life moves fast, it can be hard to notice all the nuance. It is much easier to just go with the flow. Little do we know, however, that we have carved riverbeds into our psyche that draw us back to the same patterns, thoughts and habits every single day. Is it intuition? Or is it patterning?
The True Reroute
The patterning in our psyche has a blueprint. Early (earlier) and unprocessed (still happening) experiences are the key. We cannot be free of something simply by getting away from it. We have to go through our reaction and response to the event. Debilitating sicknesses and injuries force us to go THROUGH things. As a broken bone heals, we feel every bit of it. Every muscle, tendon and bone connected to it reorients itself. We are different. It was uncomfortable, it was painful but we are changed now.
The greatest reorientation is to be present with the least desirable pieces of ourselves. To be confronted directly with our circumstances. From there we put our feet on the ground, get honest with those around us, and see what unfolds.
The roads we travel in life aren’t by mistake. We end up where we need to be, from birth to death. During the journey, we do our best. Avoidance could be a weekend at a resort, a twenty year codependent marriage or a drug addiction that inevitably takes your life. These are all valid choices. It’s just life and it is okay to live it however you seek.
There is always a better way. Your soul and the planets speak the same language. There are options, and they would be remiss to allow you to denigrate and sacrifice your time here on Earth without showing you these options. We can always go back to being asleep, but the consequences for that are not very enjoyable.
More and more, the inhabitants of Earth are waking up to the possibilities of consciousness. Frustrated with the old ways of doing things, we are breaking down the existing structures. There is no roadmap for this kind of time. Revolutionary times call for revolutionary measures. While it may seem that the outer world needs to change, this will happen when we change the way in which we view ourselves. This is where it begins and ends. How we treat others is dependent upon how we view and thus treat ourselves. No one will ever become a better person because you tell them to.
Creating Space for Healing
The only way to create a kinder world is to be kind to ourselves. From there, we will understand and pattern how to hold space for such work. Instead of yelling at our kids when they make mistakes, we can be observant and assist them in becoming aware of how their choices have resulted in their circumstance. When you were young, did it help you grow to have someone demean you? To put you down? To point out your flaws? Did punishment and restrictions cause you to reflect on what you did? Or did it just cause you to submit to a threatening authority figure?
How do you treat yourself when you make a mistake? When you get into circumstances that… maybe… you could have avoided? In short… how are you parenting yourself? It’s okay to look at this, and it may not be very nice.
If it is hard to see, take a look at the world and notice how you view it. Do you look at a figure in the media or news and desire for them to fail? Do you send hate to a stranger or neighbor for their beliefs? If so, then this is how you treat yourself. Every piece of hatred sent out is a message to yourself. Trust me, you are getting returns on it everyday. You may not know it, and the groups around you may be telling you that it is a GOOD thing to hate people. That is obviously false, but in order to recognize this, one would have to feel the root of that anger and hatred. Not an easy task.
The truth is, we already feel it. Hate stings us more than it does the hated. It poisons our well, our children, our church, our food and our friends. Everybody has something that they are working on, and you are no better than them. Circumstances are often determined from situations and events that occurred long before we were in conscious control.
We are blessed to be in our current state of awareness.
To remove the judgement of others, we must acknowledge our sobering reality within. I have no interest in projecting my bullshit on people any longer. I know at times this will want to happen, but I will take the opportunity to stop, take stock and reviews my motivations.
Coming to Grips with our Truth
The time is ripe for change. So as we get more in touch with our authentic core, our truth will emerge. Being honest with others, speaking up for ourselves, taking intuitive risks can only happen when we trust ourselves. When we have silenced our inner voice, our emotions or ignored our bodies signals we are reinforcing a message that we do not trust ourselves. This leaves us in a state of having to ‘convince’ ourselves of things. A battle that never resolves but becomes part of our lives. Just a touch of torture in every decision.
There is nothing wrong with you, if you do this. It is just a monkey wrench that has been thrown into your self concept. Your body and mind crank out meaningful and precise messages every single moment. As we receive and respond to these messages, it gets filtered. The filter is our self concept. Developed as a child and molded since. The self concept is an essential part of being alive. Without it, we could not differentiate between US and OTHER.
The self concept isn’t exactly true, as it has been responsively and reactively built from experiences in the world. Someone abused me as a kid and I accepted that I am a person worthy of abuse. This stain lingers in the self concept until the abuse is processed and re oriented.
We are imbued with unconditional love at all times. It is only the lies we accepted that stop this from flowing. Love is always flowing from the other side. From the Source of all creation and into your life. All that we have to meet it halfway.
Let us go into ourselves. Let us recognize the pieces that rise to the surface with love and understanding. Remember that what has been done to you is in service to you. The past is over. What others have done is reflective of their own reality based on their patchwork sense of self.
You can be free, choose to see it differently.