Saturn Sun Mercury 2.27-29.2024
There no shortage of issues to work through. Recently I was tested on my personal boundaries in a way that I’ve been tested many times before. The difference this time is that I stood for myself in a loving yet unwavering fashion. I spoke with compassion and met my teammate in the energy necessary to match them and reinforce my needs.
I learned that expressing a need is not a conversation. It is a statement. If someone cannot meet you there, then you just find a route out of each other’s lives and do so with as much grace as possible.
This isn’t a pretty process. It is up to you to focus on your goal and the reasons why you need it. You are gonna lose something in separation, but you’ll also gain. Try not to let either hold you from what you know is best.
Don’t allow yourself to look towards the next best thing. Simply establish what you will accept and create, carve out, and provide it for yourself.
Tough communication is the hallmark of growth. When I found my voice in such a way, I felt so much love that I melted into a new me.
I have lost communities many times in my life and the last few years have been no different. I am in the process of ending a chapter where I searched for outer validation of my worth. Is it over… not by a long shot. However the human beings that surround me at this time are a testament to the value I now intrinsically hold for me.
In much the same way, those from my past were symbolic of my old way of seeing myself. The discarded and depleted one. The lowly victim of seedy characters. I allowed others to take from me, I encouraged them to do so. For at those times, I too was a thief.
I stole from me. By giving away what I needed in hopes of filling holes within my self concept. All the while depleting myself of the resources necessary to confront my traumatized and contorted beliefs.
None of my experiences were in vain. I’m not perfect and don’t aim to be. Maybe the most painful thing we do to ourselves is trying to become something. When we allow ourselves to be, we become the embodiment of our fractured yet stunning selves. The spaces in between our identities is where the light flows through and lubricates the difficult process.
Personally, I don’t wanna be ‘all put together’. I just want to be at peace with my life while I live it. I enjoy my chaotic development cycles, they make life a little bit spicy.
As we sit in this rare transit of Sun Saturn Mercury, remember that the work is life. Experience life and what it brings you. Don’t ask others what you wouldn’t ask of yourself. It’s okay to need things, it’s also okay to be self sufficient. Don’t label your life, your psychology, your world… just live moment by moment and be ready to face what come along with that.
When we stop trying to control everything, the world really opens up to us. Feel that anxiety through to completion, and then enjoy your day.